the funny thing...

i really don't like apples.  the fruit.  i don't like the flavor, the texture, or the fact that they can be made into almost any kind of edible thing [i.e. sauce, juice, pie, etc.]

but i LOVE LOVE LOVE apples.  the computer.  i love the design, the programming, and the fact that they have all sorts of different shapes and sizes [i.e. iPod, iPad, MacBook, iMac, etc.]

365.

a year can go by pretty fast, huh?
so much has happened since last summer.
we sent off a missionary, celebrated two weddings, and moved on to bigger and better things...
but we're still all together, theoretically. [thanks facebook]

it's nice to know that no matter what i do or where i end up i'll have my girls there with me  :)
that's a comfort i'll always be grateful for.

there are two doors in front of me.

the first one will keep me safe and comfortable.  i know what i get as soon as i walk through.  there's nothing scary or mysterious about it.  and i know that i'll be happy.

the second one is the complete opposite.  it's different and strange and exciting.  i'd be doing things i've never done before.  and i think i'll love it more than anything i've ever done. 

but i can't have both.  i have to pick one.  and the choice is hard.  people will be hurt and lives will change either way.  i'll be a different, new, better person. 

this isn't something i was prepared for.