Saturday, August 29, 2009

ben is home.

here's a comparison for you:

i haven't seen ben for over 2 years.
when i saw him walking up my driveway i had to remind myself to be excited.

i haven't seen zan for six measely weeks.
when he told me he bought his ticket to vegas i had a spaz attack from trying to hold myself together.

after two years, i can't think of anything to say to ben.
no stories, no news, no nothing.

every day i talk to zan about anything we can think of.
morning time, lunchtime, after-lunchtime, break time, evening time, dinner time, night time, bed time.

ben's been my best friend since we were 10.

i'll have been friends with zan for one year this october.

i love ben.
well, in one of those best-friends-forever kind of ways.

i really like zan.
there's not any kind of definition to our relationship, but i like him.

that's all i've got so far. i don't even really know how i feel about this. all of it. any of it. but school's starting soon! i'll be in rexburg on wednesday! i get to be with my beth and my brittney! and my kayla, too! i'm ready for this.

i think.

Thursday, August 20, 2009

don't these people know...

that i can only handle ONE big important life changing event at a time?!!!!

today, i saw my old best-friend's little sisters, who are in high school. and one is old enough to be talking about colleges. they are supposed to still be 10.
later, i got a text message from Ben. remember him? the love of my life, who brings out the best AND worst in me. at the same time. he'll be home in a week. i'm not as excited as i should be to see my oldest-best-friend-forever.
shortly after, i noticed via facebook that my ex-boyfriend's wife went into labor. this is the man that i've spent seven years trying pry out of my heart. [however, their baby is the absolute cutest thing i have ever seen in my life.]
finally, i was informed of something that, frankly, i could have lived a full/happy/complete life without knowing.

did i mention that i don't like change? or growing up? or dealing with reality?

oh, and yesterday i found out that i was an accident.

Tuesday, August 18, 2009

i went shopping today!

lol. it had been a while since i spent any money.
almost a whole week!

but anyway, this week is employee appreciation at urban so we get a special discount on sale items. i got a pullover sweater with pretty flowers on it for SIX DOLLARS! and i got a cool navy and white striped long button-up cardigan for SIX DOLLARS!! and i got pink, white, and black
t-shirts for TWELVE DOLLARS EACH!! so basically it was a good day. i love shopping.

fun fact for the day:
Zan's sister-in-law has been telling him repeatedly that he needs to get his head out of his butt and figure himself out already because she likes me and she's on my side.
i don't really understand it, but i think it's funny. because Zan knows it's true, and he tells me that i'm awesome for not thinking he's a jerk. which, i am awesome and i don't think he's a jerk. i really like him...

that's all, goodnight.

Thursday, August 13, 2009

things to do in Vegas...

here are some things that we can do in Vegas, baby...

- hang out by my pool and soak up the sun!
- go shopping [my all-time favorite thing to do!!]
- cruise the Strip!
- take pictures at the "Welcome to fabulous Las Vegas" sign [which i've never ever done before.]
- get tickets to a show... they're half-price the day of, but it's slim pickin's!
- party like it's 1999.
- have a hot dog eating contest.
- get tattoos and deep-fried twinkies down on Freemont Street.
- whatever your heart desires!

NOW, i need your input. tell me what sounds fun, what sounds lame, and what i forgot to list.

Tuesday, August 11, 2009

i think i have this.

calcification /cal·ci·fi·ca·tion / (kal″sĭ-fĭ-ka´shun) the deposit of calcium salts in a tissue.
dystrophic calcification the deposition of calcium in abnormal tissue, such as scar tissue or atherosclerotic plaques, without abnormalities of blood calcium.
eggshell calcification deposition of a thin layer of calcium around a thoracic lymph node, often seen in silicosis.
Mönckeberg's calcification see under arteriosclerosis.
[Dorland's Medical Dictionary for Health Consumers. © 2007 by Saunders, an imprint of Elsevier, Inc. All rights reserved.]

cal·ci·fi·ca·tion n.
1. Impregnation with calcium or calcium salts. Also called calcareous infiltration.
2. Hardening, as of tissue, by such impregnation.
3. A calcified substance or part.
[The American Heritage® Medical Dictionary Copyright © 2007, 2004 by Houghton Mifflin Company. Published by Houghton Mifflin Company. All rights reserved.]

calcification Etymology: L, calx + facere, to make
the accumulation of calcium salts in tissues. Normally, about 99% of all the calcium entering the human body is deposited in the bones and teeth; the remaining 1% is dissolved in body fluids such as blood. Disorders affecting the delicate balance between calcium and other minerals, parathyroid hormone, and vitamin D can result in calcium deposits in arteries, kidneys, lung alveoli, and other tissues, interfering with normal organ function. See also calcitonin, calcium, calculus. calcific, adj.
[Mosby's Medical Dictionary, 8th edition. © 2009, Elsevier.]

the deposit of calcium salts in a tissue. The normal absorption of calcium is facilitated by parathyroid hormone and by vitamin D. In poisoning with calcinogenic glycosides and when there are increased amounts of parathyroid hormone in the blood (as in hyperparathyroidism), there is deposition of calcium in the soft tissue. (In hyperparathyroidism secondary to renal disease there is deposition in the alveoli of the lungs, the renal tubules, beneath the parietal pleura, the gastric mucosa, and the arterial walls.) Normally calcium is deposited in the bone matrix to insure stability and strength of the bone. In osteomalacia osteomalacia there is an excess of unmineralized osteoid because the aged well-mineralized bone is replaced by a matrix that is inadequately mineralized.
dystrophic calcification the deposition of calcium in abnormal tissue without abnormalities of blood calcium.
metastatic calcification deposition of calcium in tissues as a result of abnormalities of calcium and phosphorus levels in the blood and tissue fluids.
nutritional calcification calcification in soft tissues as a result of an increased intake of calcium.
soft tissue calcification see metastatic calcification (above), dystrophic calcification (above).
[Saunders Comprehensive Veterinary Dictionary, 3 ed. © 2007 Elsevier, Inc. All rights reserved.]

Sunday, August 9, 2009

a picture for beth.

this is a flower... obvi.

it's from argentina.
kinda crazy, right?
my friend took this pic on his mission.
and i thought you all might like to see it.

Friday, August 7, 2009

do you know why i'm awake?

because i haven't gone to sleep yet.

it's 5:28 am.

this is what the sky looked like when i pulled in to my driveway nine minutes ago.

[i might have a crush on my manager...]

Thursday, August 6, 2009

today i did several things.

10:00 am - i woke up.
10:45 am - i took a shower.
11:25 am - i did some laundry.
11:30 am - i curled my hair all pretty!
12:15 pm - i got a phone call from my long lost friend in the navy.
2:00 pm - i left my house and called zan.
2:20 om - i went to lunch with kiff.
3:30 - i went to target and bought:
a - some scrapbooking stuff,
b - a new toothbrush,
c - razors, and
d - something else that i can't quite remember.
4:15 pm - i watched tv for an hour.
5:30 pm - i went to work.
12:35 am - i drove by mcdonalds to get some dinner, but it was closed.
12:40 am - so, i went to jack in the box instead.
12:45 am - i went home and ate my dinner.
1:30 am - i was texting my manager, watching spaceballs with tyler, and falling asleep when i realized you guys would probably like to hear from me. however, i couldn't think of anything incredibly exciting to talk to you about. so i decided to give you a play-by-play of my day.
2:05 am - i finished talking all about what i did today and decided i should go to bed...
because tomorrow i'm gonna go play dodgeball at the park. i think.
2:12 am - the end.